The World Is My Oyster

….and my oyster is limitless

I open my eyes and there is an ethereal blackness surrounding me, yet it is not so dark that I cannot see anything. When my pupils focus I see before me a net moving in waves. At each point where the corners of the ultrafine translucent filaments meet is a light. This net is vast, expanding as far as I can see, in this unending sea of black all around me. The twinkle lights cast a beautiful sheen of color in the infinite dark pool pulsating various hues, that I somehow know, embody the energy of abundance, love, peace and healing. I am floating, mesmerized by the light show performed through this net, suspended in both time and space unconcerned about a single thing. After an unknown amount of time, it could have been seconds, minutes or hours…I do not know, a part of this glimmering net moves to envelope itself around me in a cape like fashion. As the ends meet above my breasts to fully encircle my body, an incredible wave of various feelings rush into every cell of my body causing a physical manifestation of emotion immediately into my eyes threatening to spill over. The intensity is too much for me to bear and I can no longer contain it. I struggle, trying to comprehend what exactly it is I am feeling only to come to the exasperated conclusion that I am experiencing all the possible human emotions at the same time. It is overwhelming and I feel like I am drowning about to lose my very soul, unable to breathe. In attempts to save myself I clench my eyelids shut and try to inhale as slowly and deeply as possible. With tears streaming down my cheeks, I tell myself to focus and get myself under control because I do not want this moment to end. I fear if I acknowledge this is not reality, like I do in my dreams when asleep, that I will be hurled back down to the blue planet upon that realization. I must gain control of my uncontained earthly human emotions. There is sadness, pure joy, shame, amazement, fear, happiness, anger, jealousy – the list goes on and on and on…I feel it ALL, ALL at once, ALL within the longest moment of my life. It finally abates and I move to loosen the cape around me as if it was the reason that caused the suffocating experience of my body. I take a breath, releasing a sigh of relief at the reprise from all that was and open the cape fully to each of the sides of my body.

Dropping hold of the cape, I bring both my palms up opening them at chest level and look down as a softball sized version of the earth appears floating. It is spinning slowly in my left palm. I see the continents and clouds in the atmosphere are moving within the sphere. I feel completely connected to Mother Earth in this moment. I am OF the earth yet I AM the earth. I am but a tiny fleck WITHIN the earth, yet I am the ENTIRE earth. What follows is the knowingness that I can have anything and everything I want on Earth because it is a part of me as I am of it – we are one. It IS possible. ANYTHING is possible. It is ALL within my reach, anything in the world can be mine, just as it is in the palm of my hand. It amazes me, this simple concept because for the first time in my life, I realize I not only understand it with absoluteness, but I believe it…no, let me restate that…I KNOW it. It is with certainty; it is in my very core being. How many times in my decades of life on earth have I heard “Anything is possible”? Too many to recount, but I never truly believed it, NO, not in my gut. My mind imposed all the many restrictions my ego, my mind, my fears and doubts had developed. In the time it took for me to see the continent of North America move in and then out of view as the globe turned in my hand, I felt absolute unwavering confidence in my ability to manifest anything.

On my right palm, a medium sized oyster appears and it opens for me. As I look from my left to my right hand, I think, “The world is my oyster.” What an obvious visualization this is turning out to be, I muse to myself, a smile forming on the lips of my earthbound body. As I peer closer into the soft folds of the oyster’s flesh, I see the shimmer of what appears to be a pearl. The globe stays floating in space as I take my left hand to gently prod the oyster into revealing its treasure and marvel at the perfect beauty of its simple creation.

Then I hear God’s voice. And I am not taken by surprise. One would think I’d be surprised by being graced by the presence of God, but in reflection, as I write this now, I realize I was already expecting to hear from him. Only I didn’t know it consciously.

“You ARE worthy!”, he booms and I see a puff of cloud appear with the words boldly showing in the fluffy whiteness – as if to emphasize the statement in a way he knows I could not and would not ignore. It remains visible longer than I expect and know it is because HE wants to make sure I get the message loud and clear.

As the cloud dissipates, he then bellows, “YOU are my child and I create all my children with purpose!” I wait, knowing I will hear more.

And then God really begins to speak to me. He is talking fast and I am desperately trying to catch and absorb every single word fearful I will miss of forget something later.

He says again, “You are my child. I created you to live this life, not to simply exist…subsist. You are worthy of everything you desire! You are capable of creating everything you desire! I created you to enjoy life to your fullest potential. Not to simply do what you think is expected of you, grinding through life day by day with barely any joy or happiness. You only get one chance at this life, and yes while you may have had many lifetimes and may have more lifetimes in your soul’s future, you only live this particular life once. This is it! Your one shot at this lifetime. Find your joy, your happiness and do the things that bring you those, every possible moment of this life. I did not create you to suffer or toil through the mundane. You have so much potential, within yourself and what you can make of what is YOUR life. You have the ability to make a difference, and no, I am NOT talking about making a difference in the world or other people’s lives. Forget about that! Don’t worry about what you do for others, I didn’t create you to worry about your effect on others. Make a difference for yourself and live the life I intended when I created you! Be all that I envisioned you to be in and of yourself! Do not worry, my child, because you ARE my child and I will ALWAYS take care of you. I love you my dear. Why do you waste your life this way? Why don’t you realize what my intention is for you, for this life that you live in the 20th century? Turn yourself around and be who I truly intended you to be. And do not fear, there is no reason for that. That is the Devil’s work and he has led your life for far too long. Cast him away, cast him aside and let ME deal with him. Take me into your heart, where I have always been and let me lead you the way. The way of true love, bliss and happiness. Cast away all the negativity, doubts, fears, shame and regret. Forget what others or society may say or think because they don’t matter. I created you to be happy in this life and no matter what you do, if you are striving for your own happiness, THAT will make me happy, because it is the reason I created you. And stop worrying about being “so old – running out of time” already. I will ensure you live a very long life until you are old and gray. Okay? You are only at the beginning of the second half of your life young one and I want to see you make the most of it! There is so much life left for you to live and, I say once again, so much potential for TRUE happiness.”

“As you hold the world in your left hand, you see it will continue to keep going round and round. You can have anything in this world – it is ALL already yours, you simply need to claim it and manifest it to reality.”

“As you hold the oyster in your right hand and pluck your pearl, a representation of what you lovingly create in your life, you will see that another pearl will form and be yours. Each pearl is unique, just as each achievement in your life is. Some are small and white and perfect. Then there are larger ones, different colors, and others that are misshapen. That is in reflection as you live your life from this point forward working towards fulfilling your potential, your desires and making your many dreams of all shapes and sizes come true. There is no limit my sweet one to how many pearls your oyster may bear.”

As he speaks these words I am excitedly pulling pearls of a variety of sizes and colors from this magical oyster like a child given free reign in a candy shop and they mysteriously find their rightful places on my body. The first two are earrings that grace my lobes, then magnificent rings appear on my left hand on 4 of my fingers, one being so sizeable that I struggle with the weight of it on my middle finger! Then my right hand. As I continue to pluck each pearl from the slick pale body, I marvel at the pure beauty of each, looking into the pearl’s surface and seeing a flash of what each one represents. I see myself both in the creation process and the result of each and every one of my passions…a poem, a painting, a built-in bench I built for the breakfast nook, story after story after story, a tarot deck I designed, my first published book, a beautiful resin coffee table with ocean blue colors, greeting cards, t-shirts, a resin and wood lamp…my creativity is limitless and in a flash a necklace of perfect pearls dons my décolleté. I smile with pride as the oyster disappears from my palm and I reach to finger the cool smooth feel of each pearl around my neck, knowing that I created each and every one of them purely for MY SELF at God’s request to pursue my passions and do what makes me happy.

“I love you more than you could ever know”, he continues after my body is fully adorned with pearls. In that moment, a feeling of the purest unconditional love that ever existed washed over and inside my very soul. It took my breath away and paused my heart from beating. I did know, I thought to myself, in that exact moment because I felt it down deep within my soul. Fresh tears fell over my cheeks at the magnitude of it.

“Live your life!” echoed through the universe….and with that I heard nothing more. I look around me at the blackness and feel completely changed from the inside out. I mean how could one not be changed after being lectured by God?

And with that question, I found myself back in my body sitting on my couch at home. The meditative trip to a celestially unknown destination left a tingly glow in each of my cells as a sweet reminder, lasting well after I had returned back to my third dimensional body. A chuckle comes to my lips. “Did God just lecture me?”, I ask myself incredulously? Yes, yes he did and I knew I deserved it. I needed it.

And I share my personal experience with you, because maybe you need it too.